Just like that I'm a mother & all what that means I'm yet to find out but what I do know already is a great joy ever since I gave birth to this beautiful healthy human being Called Afroditi Ilse-Louise Georgeous.
Even if currently just around the house, I can only ware and feel good in these short tops as I'm rocking one here on my selfie with my wide relaxing pants. The stomach is toned and back in it's place not to bulky just wright, soft in the wright places and toned down.The goal was reached!
Well prior to getting the land and actually starting with working over 15 ours a day in the heat of the gh sun, I was still in Tema and send lots of time working out walking much riding bike etc etc. But it is save to say that without much stress I lost the overweight and went back to my desired weight and sinse then the strickt date got replaced by a simple and healthy life style where I got out certain foods of my menu when I'm not moving as much as I did then and there. I feel fab... and as my mirror states I look delicious in a way I self desire, so in a nutshell what more does a girl want. I'm on my dream project in gh. The music studio and lodges are coming more into reality now and I'm in a very healthy and loving relationship with a wonderful man. So in this same breath I must say the internet dating won the challenge over the tiresome waste of time combing thru man who simply don't know who they are yet or what they want in life, on the contrary I cut thru all that bullshit and the glow on my face currently says it all.
On love well I'm currently not really in the mood to go to deep in topic about my relationship, surely also cause in the past sadly though I feel openly phrasing ones relationship shouldn't damage it, past situations only have shown me that the negative effect of openly even just complimenting on the matter leads to unwanted negative results internal. aLL i know is the last weeks as I was in Ghana I couldn't have done it all without the constant metal support of my current boyfriend who lives in Hamburg. We have been communicating almost every day sinse the day we met and his mental support always kept my two feet firmly on the ground even as matters got tuff when I first went to Gh and things weren't going my way. A secure man that doesn't waver is the pillar that holds a strong force in place, Reason why I am not fond of the idea of relationships inside Gh, It seems like this type of stand by your man .. stand by your woman attitude isn't correctly installed in the system. And for me haven grown up in Europe it comes natural. each day we talked for the last three months I looked forward to seeing him more till I eventually returned to Germany and we did spend several wonderful days together. I think at our age going towards 40 and over people have strong personalities of their own and when single prior an own life rhythm we step to, for example my food or date, what if I met a man who only eats mc Donald's, spending time with such a man would totally turn me of. But it's not just food it's everything life rhythm all-round and with my current boyfriend though we don't live in the same city we share allot of the same Rhythms which was clear to us when we started dating online till we met. It clears all out of the way when you get to talk about the things that matter to each other and then meeting is just about meeting but the heart basically has already decided, love is not only in the heart it's in the head and in the every day life and the goals and future plans we have for our lives. And if you ask me if I see a future here. No comment but I surely hope so and I'm committed. My head & heart say let's go for it, so momentarily i'm chilled as ever, balanced we don't fight much we talk, it's a smooth ride of love soothing to my age and stage in life. Where it's about happiness and doing the wright things for me and my life, not about wasting time on all the wrong things that don't lead anywhere eventually.
Have I eaten today? Not really some fruits yea...I got food on fire like I always have but nobappetite. I'm missing my boyfriend and honestly the last thing I feel like doing is blogging. It's light off .. bad wifi situation and I'm in kokrobite been working hard day in day out...have I been lazy just cos I'm not blogging no...The contrary! Been to busy working!
So first things. Yea I know today I'd actually should be writing on me script & me and not here head & heart but though I'd have to say I'd have watched enough movies while resting ocasionally last weeks. I simple don't have any referal love stories lined up. What I can say is that my long distance love has been more then supportive as the weeks have been trying romance has been flurishing making me look forward to see him after this work here is realised and I'm a step closer to realising my dreams here as well, But to some it up the relationship is in great shape with my boyfriend in hamburg joerg. If I had to vote on trust or on the vote of confidence in us and him having me out here alone ...hes been realky great about it...so I'd say a 10 put of 10 on healthy behaviour. And don't get a wrong idea there is a clear reason I've not worked on the race topic mentioned in script & .... I simply don't have the same energy in africa about writing africabout race matters let alone race matters & relationship matter in combination....such topics I save for when I'm in berlin im more inspires bout such topics there.
Below a shot with landguard as we settled last matters on the plot. The days leading up to finishing up In order to get started finally were slow.But hell Yea it looks like the days of being able to say hey today we dey eat my soup oh, in my place of business have moved closer now, which us the reason for the title today, ok sure today we actually did eat soup I cooked and fufu pounded by my sisters but that wasn't the actual reference here.
Then today after two weeks of action and going thru the motions it's finally a day of resting fufu & soup and I'm using the time to work on the architectural layout for the entire space...
front view to the sea....
Just friends & workers my sister Mary & me below.
We@work & more below!
HERE we had to take a food break...For a moment after starting work early that day.
Not gonna write allot today.... but give u a recap last two weeks. I been doing my best to move each day that for sure...if not intentionally training, definately moving cos I had so much work to do...This week n the last has been trying...even lost my voice cos I was to tired...The land matters are going as they may .n I'm still in time I got the will and drive to see this thru the next year's till its done.
sure down the line when slso my boyfriend is free to come down with me, when I'm really ready to build the entire this will move faster. WITH THAT type of emotional support its always easy er in life to make thy almost inposable posable.
This morning.....I had long distance breakfast with my boo...n I must say even from afar we always to romantic things. It's really the most healthy relationship I been in sinse years.
bamboo transport from tema to kokrobite calling with my business partner after kalkulations I had to talk over some stuff.
After Marian gel and I and thy other were done counting the 500 pieces of 4 meter 50 thick bamboos on the car.
business dinner with Vegas n sk business pals n on location middle man.this day we were discussing measurements n kalkulating building costs n one took their child along who is very fond of me like most children are I noticed. They are skilled in different crafts you will learn mire about later when tge building starts....diplomatic and my on location middle man I call them often almost each day to arrange stuff for me on location when I'm in tema or in eu. And the help out with kalkulations and support in all areas to keep lines open when dealing with others. im speak and tgey are resoevtfull enough to listen but akso have and contribute ideas and thoughs on all matters.
Another day another bike ride of the many rides.
buying the amboo .
The sales man of the bamboo and wood..They made a very hood selection for me based on my wishes. I'd buy from them again...if only transport costs to kokrobite from tema goes down...
After kalkulating how much bamboo I need my head was spinning...left was to select n stay for the selection ... then next day order a car put them on it and go...my cousin half cash helped with that...though it could have been and better family or ice ;-( ....It think....hihihi ;-) all good .
I mostly kept my healthy shakes in my bag. Grandad got ill even during this time so that added to the stress naturally and I really had to keep my vitamins up.
This land was just to small and close to the water ...literally the sea rises to the gates in the front . My business partner was like no I don't want you to die there from a big wave. so that was a no no.
The day we went to buy the stones. At the stone Quarry. The yellow truck was ordered n payed for by me n volleyed the stones that day sk drove with the truck to give them directions and Vegas drove my car I was really tired.
" IN A NUTSHELL " Is the piece I intend to write today but as we are dealing with a bit of a slow wifi currently which like takes a half our to upload images I normally upload in minutes in Europe, let me see how things are moving as this slow net connection just started now @ this our we might have to move this live session to the morning before I go get my fit on tomorrow. Allot is going on but in a nutshell I have been managing the most things that need to be done concerning my six back back program, so far I feel good sticking with my fruit shakes gives me allot of energy each day. So I've been on them and on a pretty tight training schedule, not to much nor to stressful but enough to lose all the exstra.
By the way these nuts are pretty healthy for us oddly enough also fat burning and the natural oils it contains is good. This piece i'm intending to write is called in a nutshell cause I actually wanted to talk about all the things that are good for us, in this case as in me and things that are not. Sometimes I wish in life that it was so easy to say in a nutshell what is good for us or not as is to be said about these peanuts.
It's pretty easy to say these are good for you, but take training or foods or even relationships . Yeah at some point in life we get so tolerant to many and so intolerant to other stuff and have a list of things we want need etc etc. But sometimes we only get to a part of that. That's why priorities gotta be made. To me currently my main priority is personal happiness, so despite my training and land matters and million other things going o in my life I naturally do not put my relationship after all those things but in front or on the same leven but never after. In life not balancing your stage of life based on where you are at in your life makes you loose balance and then it becomes harder to even know in a nutshell what is or isn't good for you. Well luckily I feel physically mentally and spiritually great cause in all aspects I know exactly what is good for me. And I'd be lying if I said the contribution of happiness my boyfriends presents in my life brings isn't one of em I'm all about what's good for me @ this point in my life & have no understanding nor to much time for most who don't get that. I've had weird comments like how do you know this or that is good for you. Well privately it's an individual matter, But on the training even my condition going in a great direction is uplifting. Also I fit nicely in my fav. looks and I'll go a little bit more into that and not weighing yourself to much on the next flow on this peace tomorrow. I already said it before trying to get fit from a negative pace is really hard to maintain so again. Don't give up on life in order to physically get fit. embrace it. Thats what integrating your fitness in your life is. Don't make only your fines a priority when everything else is falling apart in your life, cause in that case the training is more like crutches not like a foundation to an all-round happy feeling that one needs to lose weight without mojo effect!
By the way I ate a bunch of them I got on the road yesterday as I was preparing to start writing today. Don't forget head & heart is every 2 weeks and that the two weeks in a row was only a one time thing when I was in the Netherlands. It's a make up free sunday and I have taken in enough rest today. enjoyed myself with stuff I want to eat that aren't only out of my workout box of foods. Sometimes it's good to take a day off to throw of the body from a new routine it's getting use to if you keep it up each day. That routine should be shaken up from time to time. Hey I'll be leaving ya'll now. I'll see what images load faster tommorow. and add some more. This is me now on Head & heart matters.
As I was getting ready to write this piece I didn't feel the need at all to write this additional cause at times I like to think I live in a world where people are intelligent enough to get such simple facts by themselves, Example for a writer to write "we are taking it to "New York" doesn't mean I suddenly travel thru time and space and my life suddenly is transferred to New York I figured only a ripple without any sense for reality would believe that instead of the simple logic that using characters in another place to make a point doesn't mean I as a real living breathing person suddenly become them. But I've dealt with many unintelligent people before so let me state that factor. for those so slow they can't grasp something as simple as that by themselves. as a writer we use imagination to travel but I never said I literally flew to New York. But we seriously have some imbeciles who after this post believed so. weird being that I'm flying to Africa on the 25th and this is called live blogging The location I'm blogging from is Berlin though it hasn't been officially added to where we @ with images I'm pretty sure dates were mentioned from when to when I'd be flying to the Netherlands and back. Yeah sometimes it just takes that little bit of intelligence for people to know what's. But without further do let's get to it below. As I got ready today to write I took a different spot to have some fresh air. But these pictures couldn't be loaded as my disk was displaying issue to import more material from my phone. The date of today above for all those lost in time.
As you might have noticed the last month was just dinner for one, cause before I was in Rotterdam I actually was by myself. My house mate returned from traveling some days ago so my advice for you is also the best thing you can do for your diet is to prepare food not only for yourself but for everybody in the house. That way you won't have to deal with them adding unhealthy things in the fridge which will make you slip up. I ate salad and a little white meat chicken prepared with honey. another thing I like to drink to keep vitamins up in my body is pure juiced 100% you can actually get these at pharmacies. But as you see above I use them to mix my own dose of juice cause I drink allot and like to. I mix the pure juice strop in a full bottle of water and add the pure vitamin juice to it. It tastes exactly like something you can buy in a bio store only this way you determine the dosage of what.
Computer is running a bit slow, had to get all my pics in here mac air to be able to work faster and have access to everything faster but now it seems it's slow though I cleared up so much space to be able to do that already! Anyhow this morning started simple with breakfast like every morning does. And sometimes if life was only so simple if getting up and having a routine is all that's required to have it made well then we'd all have a whole lot less heard ache wouldn't we.
Now as you look at this green tea without color apple banana and everything else that turns to grey I'll tell you one simple metaphore that is the red line thru many health problems people have including gaining wait. If U as a person who gains wait if the activities in their life has risen or not reasons they have in life to move more simple example " relationships" sex simple activities with a partner that naturally burn calories while you ain't counting! If you reduce all activities and life becomes grey unless you give it color again yourself it's natural that the flavours you knew ain't what they are anymore so today concerning what food is I don't want to talk to long about tips on what to eat and not I want you to take a good hard look at your life now and make a list of the things you use to do when you were naturally slim in your life vs. the things you no longer naturally do since years as you gained wait. I want you to take a good hard look at your life and stop focussing on the wait for a moment I want you to look at your life and look at what has changed. this morning woke up and ok apart from my very sweet boyfriend whom started chatting with as the day started and also ended chatting with yesterday as the day ended. we started the day having long distance sex, no I'm not giving you more detail on that "use your own imagination" point is a mind blowing orgasm was the entry in my day. And sure you can now say a whole lot of self love crap on that sure you can claim that's also all it is when it's long distance anyways. But fact is he makes me smile most of the day and the though and encouragement of us going back and forth is the entire interaction that makes it our sex life and not just mine alone. It's the beautiful fantasy of the two of us entangled in our own yet combined realities each day that highness emotions and puts you in the same state of falling in love when your together, only difference is we use technology to communicate everything he'd normally whisper in my ears close and vice versa, you get the point! All of you with boyfriends and girlfriends know that its not always just the penetration that gets you there so you get the point. But there is smooch more to this topic then sex or love thats mind blowing. it's communication how does some1 else communicate to you to make you feel good about yourself or how do you communicate to yourself to be and feel motivated. Let me start of by telling you the last two days i took a bit time off and yes in all honestly the hard work I did in the Netherlands did go a bit on reverse But that being said, I simply needed a whole other type of R & R to keep this move going another month! And every expert on abs will tell you you don't need to do crunches to get abs you need to start losing weight all over and as the fat melts of your entire body your abs will start to appear!
I WOULD WANT TO WARE THIS ON THE BEACH IN KOKROBITE & HAVE IT FIT LOSELY "MOTIVATION"
Just so you know these above are new clothes and training clothes I got to support my attitude, inside out and outside in and even the things I buy a size to small are meant to fit when I'm done!
As I started the morning after we talked about the world and back even marriage and so many other things just like you do after sex in the morning when you stay in bed for a while before you get up, I got up and was smiling about the thought that he had brought up the topic of a big wedding in Africa as a German man and then I started laying my tracks hip hop for like 3 ours as I cleaned I djayed some old school tracks I hadn't heard in ages and as I did this I danced and moved and suddenly cot myself doing moves that are more exchausting and more complex and more workout level then the entire workout I did the last week, so As I cleaned for three ours I each time took 10 minutes to intensively dance like crazy and then I realised I use to dance as my profession wether it was ours of rehearsal for tour or in the weekends as I did in clubs and I realised all the things I don't intensively do anymore which included dancing almost every day, natural that my body was so toned as I was younger not because I was younger but because I moved like crazy each day for the one the one things or thy other! and that was the moment I knew How I was going to express my colourblind topic of today in two ways see my colourblind topic today ain't really just about flavour of food or what you miss in your life it's not about thy one or thy other it's about everything, all the things we eliminated out of our lives cause we grow older or we think others won't approve etc etc. see I'm a very strong willed generally strong person. but even for strong people life can lay blocks in the road and before we know it things move in a different direction then we thought it. see In all of this I'll tell you one I know I gotta do this my way and if you can find inspiration in that it's great, I'll tell you I don't weigh myself on a scale, in this 6 weeks what I do instead is ware the clothes and sizes I want to see myself in and when they start to fit well I know the diet is working plus I see the reduction as things tone. See weighing yourself and all that pressure nonsense doesn't help a healthy state of mind and nothing that doesn't help a healthy state of mind helps weight loss. Thats a simple thing, so first of all make sure you are happy. Don't start this journey all depressed, go after the things you want and need in life. Me I wanted a loving and sweet man as my boyfriend , sure he is not in my arms wright now but I went after that after all the jokers I had to deal with prior I was even starting to think good man don't exist but he's shown me each day so far they do exist, and honestly that thought alone each day adds to the motivation see motivation is the key to everything and I know some people claim negativity is also a motivation but why, why go running cause you feel tortured and bad when you also can go running cause you feel good and it makes you feel better, cause you see everything else in your life falling in the wright place. My main message before I get to my actual underlining topic is don't look for the negative motivation look for the positive.
Last week I couldn't ware a cropped top like this my belly was 3 layers more now I can and I rewarded myself with clothes to go with it I couldn't showcase everything I got but you get an idea. People feeling good matters don't shortchange on your desired look thinking oh I'll get clothes ones I'm done losing weight cause feeling bad and trying might mean you might never get there! Get good running and training shoes they don't need to be to expensive just good and comfy and good clothes that suite your taste ! I wanted to ware this crop when I came from gh but I ddin't get it , a month later I tried it on after indulging myself and I couldn't get in it in a nice way hahaha. But now I can again and that didn't come from a bad attitude. This fast weight loss also didn't come from frustrating and hungering myself food types what you should and shouldn't eat like I said I'll share but you find enough of that on the net. What you can't find on the net is the motivation to stay positive and these tips I'm giving you here can get you there, start with the list and work it down from there.
For the underlining deeper topic beneath the topic today I take us to New York and although this type of everyday ware I'm rocking above motivates me to feel hot to, the following topic is one of the biggest demotivating topics of my life and I though it would become better after Id been to Africa and back to Europe but for some idiots they are only making it worse the topic is racism no matter how and in which direction it's some demotivating shit I don't want in my life! I'm just gonna tip on it here today but for this entire piece you're going to have to visit the link above "ME SCRIPT ETC ETC." CAUSE I'll be using a tv show to go deeper into this topic next weekend, The reason I'm doing head & heart every second weekend, is so I can do other links on this blog every interval second weekend to. The topic Racism example I'm 155 HE IS 192 Tall, I love R&B soul etc. hip hop generally black music, if so rock as well he mainly loves rock, I'm black brown eyes, he is blond bleu eyes the example I'm using next week you can already watch it now on link below, so you'll know what I'm talking about, I have faced this problem in my own life before In my 20ties as my music got more black my ex boyfriend also was is blond caucasian then became a target "so called" black music lovers used as an aspect to criticise me & my music for as well as to insult him or me claiming me being with a white person makes me not authentically black " the most racist bullshit I ever heard in my life" How the fuck do I stop being black cause the man I'm with is caucasian only a racist can make sense of that I don't get it"! Do you think my roots in Africa are in my pussy??? Let me correct you my roots don't disappear no matter who I'm with and if you don't get that my dear racist friends get in line with the nazis cause if that's your mind set that's the group you belong to. And this also added to many other things put a huge strain on that relationship.
If this situation happened now where I'm older Id give less of a damm about what racists think or better yet don't think! Cause racists don't think they rather just see oposites and hate on it. And personally I'm so over nonsense like that. I'm not colorblind I see perfectly clear and who I love and loves me isn't a matter of the colour of our skin nor a matter of some lifestyle "so what" will we die if I love hip hop and black music and he loves rock, no we won't Nor is that what our every day life revolves around " sure being a power couple can be helpful if certain things align " But honestly things aligning in a relationship also is not guarantee for it to work nor a recopy for happyness. When you have a family with some1 the things that matter are is he a good dad to my babies, not just what does he like to turn up loud in the car. Or what colour is his skin or mine, no to me what matters is how do we interact with one another when we talk every day, How do we lift each other up, motivate one another near or far we are always close. The priceless love in life doesn't come only from superficial expectations from one another. And with a loving well articulated man to me it's clear that actually the well rounded articulate way a man interacts with me, matters a million times more then the other factors. Cause you can be the same skin colour and love the same music and still have nothing else what really matters in common! And that is a fact I lived thru so I know what I'm talking about dear racists take to heart that interacial doesn't mean that two people give up all of who they are mostly if it's a healthy relationship it means two people gain more to what they are from another culture and life thoughts like this motivate me, not thoughts of some racist persons mindset telling me it's Best if I get married to some African farmer with who I might have less in common except skin colour music and heritage, simply cause I was raised in Europe sinse age 4!
http://www.missalpha.com/stilolookbook To visit the entire piece visit link or click on pic upcoming sunday. The movie & or tv show link I'll be using to go into this piece is Glee season 5 episode 15. The entire episode is about the double standards of racism and how sometimes without being Racist the simply need to wanna eat in this world " like in Mercedes her case" can push you to the limit of choices at times your heart might not agree with, but this racist world only sees one way. link : http://www.tvids.net/watch78/Glee/season-05-episode-15-Bash
I'm a writer so yes to all those who ask "who you write so much on yr instagram" go figure what do writer do "they write" !!! And all that is added to my topics of the week if its in that context!
IF YOU ARE WITH SOMEBODY CAUSE THEIR SKIN COLOUR & THE HIP HOP PANTS THEY WARE FITS BETTER TO YOUR LIFESTYLE THEN SOMEONE WHO MIGHT TREAT YOU BETTER BUT AIN'T GOT THAT SAME SWAGG YOU ARE AFTER, THEN MAYBE YOU ALSO REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS! CAUSE YOUR HEART DON'T START AND END IN YOUR LIFESTYLE! IT'S NICE IF ONE CAN HAVE IT ALL BUT IF I HAVE TO CHOOSE I CHOOSE THE ONE WHO TREATS ME WELL OVER ANY OTHER NONSENSE AND IS NATURALLY HOT BY NATURE NO MATTER IF THEY WARE EXACTLY WHAT I LIKE OR NOT. JUST LET HIM BE HOT WHEN HE GETS NAKED! CAUSE YOU CAN HAVE A FATSO WARING THE SWAGG YOU LIKE YES I KNOW FATSO IS ALSO PREJUDICE "BUT IT DON'T TURN ME ON2 AND THAT'S MY OPINION. SO HE WARE THE WRIGHT CLOTHES BUT IS A FUCKING TURN OFF WHEN HE GETS NAKED NOOOO NOT FOR ME! Another head & heart matter comes to an end till the next time we meet, hope your head & heart get wright!
THIS MORNING Well this morning I got up after a long good rest still feeling attacked from the allergies. But I managed best I could and did a 20 minute work out for the abs, after that I took my shower I had eaten prior. So I then only needed to get dressed and leave the house. with the dog which I walked for some time & then after that I got in and looked for what we eat, then I Prepared fro head & heart all the pictures and stuff and then I HAD A REALLY GOOD REST AND HERE WE ARE. Before you read this piece and make any illusions that I must still be into you and this goes for anybody I ever dated or tried dating in the past. For me the spark between two people is just that "between two people" I don't do one sided love therefor loos any interest the second I see it's not returned or I'm not treated wright romantically by a person. That can also be the cause why people who mess up in the beginning always run after the facts trying to get my attention. But personally I believe people with the tendency to be successful know what they want also privately in their life and don't need to mess that up before they get it. For that reason and many more I'm not a real believes of love @ 3rd sight. If you really like me its something that is constant and continues from the memento our eyes meet. And if you don't know hat you want in life you need to long to realise that in that case your more like a woman and more like a libra the I am and I'm not interested later. And note don't ask why am I telling the story then "question" how the fuck do you want me to tell the story without actually telling the story??? Exsactly doesn't mean i'm still into some past waste of time!!!
So to start of my piece I want ya'll to realise though I'm a bit on the early side today as we are first to start at nine or around. But I want ya'll to know concerning live blogging as it is live which means in real life things can always happen which delay a process, you know which is normal..like example how as you can see below sometimes I'm still moving images from one phone to the other or to the computer and stuff or taking pics etc etc. you know the technical aspect of all this & also today I'm starting with these 3 sower pickles which I have to eat just now cause I was suffering from a swollen under tongue which is caused by an allergic reaction I had on the way to my aunties place to days ago, cause there were so many trees and stuff there. Well the next day I was flat and it wasn't rather cause of the bike ride but mores cause my body was having a hard time processing all that including the allergy. Anyhow so they say this sower pickle is meant to help the swelling go down and the tongeu which has been since that day to go down, as I also instantly feel a relieve. At first I just felt the pain there in that place but it is only today I noticed that actually swelling as I kept wondering why the pain was still there though I viscidly feel better already since I took a rest. Well so I went and take a look and checked what natural remedy could make this go away and so they say sower pickle. Anyhow to open the topic today I don't just want to talk about food and the diet but also about spiritual attitude one should develop to be able to make it true a process of dieting or eating well better yet, and moving correctly to loose pounds and build muscle if that's what one desires. But in mentioning 3 sower pickles it's save to say now or days it's like many man out there in what ever is left of our dating pool in 2015 are just like these sower picked "sower" !
And so we come to my mental state and how Id have to work overtime to make sure such people with no good intentions didn't manage to brake my spirit down and cause me to fold on this initiative I have take for the next weeks to come.
I'm not having a perfect sitting position as I get ready to write, but ok this isn't my own apartment in berlin or gh Where my writing desk and everything is prepared for me so we take it as it is how ever uncomfortable my mind is on point and my hands are still willing so lets go into what's been up, mental state etc etc. So those who religiously follow my Instagram etc already know the deal, concerning that I was innitially chatting on what's up with an old acquaintance. And the deal was kind of he asked me out on a drink around november december where I was still in ghana and @ that point I just sort of stopped unofficially dating some1 who just wasn't getting serious so do to that I just cut that all together and we became just friends. Well long story short as this guy lets call him matt to keep all things clear, as this guy then asked me out from Berlin I said oh I'm in ghana so maybe rain check, then he said oh why not just get to know each other better kind of, and so I suggested for us to have our first date on Skype, he got a drink and i got a drink we skyped talked and that was the first official date. So after that we stayed in touch, but then what was meant to be a short time before I returned and we could go on a real date turned out to become longer as I had to extend the trip some weeks to take care of some final things which initially even helped me to get this land that I am now proceeding to purchase. So it was very needed this extention at that time.
EXTENDED & RESULTS LAND MATTERS BELOW
just now I have to eat a bite so I'll be gone for a half our and be back, after eating, the day started a bit late so all is a bit delayed, and as you wonder well what do my thoughts and food and all that have to do with my head n heart, well we are what we eat do see & feel so I guess to know what is in my head and heart we gotta go into some general details sure we can't cover all on one sunday evening but we can tell it like it is for the time being, wright now I'm eating this below.
Delicious Quinoa / Mom & me
But before I leave what i'm eating, my mom cooked Quinoa veggies added advocate chicken stew & two bananas or plantain better yet.
Quinoa is a good gluten-free source of protein, iron, and fiber, quinoa is a quick and flavorful way to get in a serving of whole grains. About the size of pellets of couscous, quinoa cooks in about 20 minutes. The only special handling required with quinoa is to give it a good rinse before cooking; otherwise, the grains can be bitter.
THE LONG DISTANCES IN ROTTERDAM NETHERLANDS WITHOUT THE DETAIL
So I know your now all into the juicy detail of this dating story and stuff and ya wanna know how that al proceeds, but I promised so much and also to go into the distances I traveled with the bike and walking so first things first and now your into the intro of this story, we gonna take it from the top what we did today and how backwards all the way back to the day I left berlin which went a bit like this listen so First day .. The day I barely slept when I got to holland, after cleaning and packing in berlin ... Then drove with my bike from ziegelstrasse to Stavanger straße in Berlin Ghana embassy to pick my pass & visa & back... I was a bit in a hurry so on the way there I parochially took a cab and put my city cruiser in it.
But Before I drove to the doctors office in Mitte n had to make a million calls and write mails all under pressure and stress, that I still had to catch a plane... That day I made it all and got on time to check my bags in the stress of flying and all that which comes before. Then I reached my Aunti and Anna and my other niece picked me up from the airport. I got to my moms we all sat drank talked. Then my Aunti dropped us off around kruiskade cause I had to get something there from the shop. From there I walked back which is the distance on this image "up left " To my moms in kralingen. The next morning I walked back there to & from kruiskade a total 6 km and it doesn't stop there these are the other distances, but even the day I went to maatenessedijk to sleep at my nieces house the day we went out together, That day I kind of had to walk allot of the entire distance of 5.5 km cause my dog dad del got tired really fast and as he did I had to sort of walk pull him & the bike and the heavy stuff I had with me that day no picnic but all in the name of fit why not. It turned out to be a fun evening despite that work but the next day I biked back the same distance. Then that same evening I drove with my niece on the bike to Barendrecht to visit my uncle and aunt her parents. And I already mentioned before try to make sure you do your movement in coordination of things you have to do anyway or fun but don't only do it as a by force exercise only that can cause your motivation to drop a little bit faster then is needed to keep this up.
I'll go into why brown bread & grains aren't as good as some think it is for fat burning purposes next time help me remember. But generally it isn't a crime to eat foods that are processed a little just avoid eating it allot. Point is whole grains in bread like that are processed to keep that long meaning chemical despite how it's hyped as healthy your body has a hard time processing that into anything else except storing it as fat. More about that next time for today I don't want to go into food to much. I gave one good tip on the food I ate today & it be a bit much to count back on every little thing I ate the last week prior but you can get an image and see there is mostly no bread. Or very less.
As far as the love story goes two horror stories followed after that 5 month chatting for sort of nothing but the detail of that is, this guy also became a "just friend" cause the thing never climaxed from friendship into a sexual romance witch any sexually active adult will tell you isn't the end goal of a love relationship. Then after I was dating or basically crushing into two other people I met we did climax but the one was burned in the past and doesn't know nor want to commit again, so he said and thy other has children and behaved asif the children were more of a priority then me since the first day & then acted that out by ignoring me period which also isn't what I am looking for in a loving and caring many who always puts me first! So there it is emotionally I did manage all that really well and didn't have any tendency to get to sad despite that one could really conclude that if this is all that is out there for us single ladies then the world is at a very sad state currently. So I didn't want to come here and give ya'll a sobstory & claim I tried everything but so and so. So to add a little spice to this flavour I though I'd add the one element where I can say I tried everything in thy end & at the same time I could kill 2 bees with one stone. What am I talking about well " dating sites" because now or days some guys don't here no, and even if you tell them no your not my type or at this point in life ai'm not dating so or so, or I exspress clearly what type of guy I do wanna date rather then so and so but then in the end only the criterea we ain't into gets on our nerves so it's as good as zero or nothing. Anyhow what I want to do is I personally want to test and see if dating sites really work & two I actually at first only wanted to take the questions one has to answer to state a post about the specifics that certain people look for in a loves cancelling others out meaning if you don't fall in that category for me we don't need to go into why I'm not more hot about you then about some1 who is cause that is what criteria is about and though people and real men don't seem that get that now a days in real life I wonder if it is the same online dating sites & I don't really mean Facebook I mean actual sites. The thing is if I state in a dating site age from 28/45 and some1 writes me who is 58 then I think wtf same as in real life wright. Only in real life it's a little bit more annoying cause such a person can't be deleted by a simple delete button in an email if the interest isn't really thee in real life as a kind person i mostly do my best to be nice about it and let them down easy unless if they become stalkers then there is no other way but to be honest about it!
I TOTALLY AGRY WITH THY ABOVE
but one can only be monogemous ones two have actually really established and verbally agreed to actually really have a love relationship that from that point on is seen as such monogamous one and sadly with the nonsense I been dealing with the last weeks that level was never reached and in other cases not even slightly close gone in that direction to see it ever going there.
I can't get into how specific dating sites are on everything concerning who you are and who you want to be with eventually without filling to much space here but ya'll get the point and everybody who has ever been on a site like that even as a joke knows how detailed it is personally I would appreciate people in real life to also not waste my time. Like if I state im looking for a serious relationship don't waste my time if your just looking for a one night stand or simply for nothing, At the end of the day that's just like dealing with deff people who only hear what they want to hear. And I'm not into that. I like people who know what they want as I do and try mostly to stay on that course. And so it is that on a dating sight I specify the guys hight gotta be at least starting 188 not to short taller guys aloud and I state they have to be very very cute and attractive by anybodies standards, so if you know you ain't you don't need to bother. I think dating sites give a good example of what people don't understand in real life anymore about a persons preferences or not. As so it is that I indicate what I want and they to show me interest if they are into it. At least so it seems that is clear enough. In real life people often act assif they forgot you stated your only into serious relationships after or while they waste your time wanting something else themselves or having personal emotional issues cause of some ex assif I am your ex wtf. Anyhow long story short
that's why I call the bust of past weeks no serious but emotionally unavailable guys sower picles they all sower about something but don't even realise it can't be about me cause they have never dated me before so I'd suggest ya'll go put your frustrations on your exes and not on me & let me move on i'm not into sower blaming me for shit of their past I ain't done! So you see despite all this where did I still get the energy from to travel and simply keep going simple, I take life by the day as it comes and I try keeping my spirits up by never blaming myself for other peoples flaws. Anyhow when I get of track then not to much, like for instance one of the people that actually look ok to my standarts on the site lives in Hamburg, well Hamburg is not that far from berlin so that's not a drama point is I'm not interested in starting any unrealistic relationship at this point in my life and any man who is serious about having a serious relationship gets that and feels the same without that I have to explain as much as I had to, to some in Africa, If financially at my age something is to draining one has to consider that very seriously cause fact is life goes faster then we know & is short! And on this note "4 ours live blogging" we are done! So Now I can take the time to add the number of my online date & see where the chatting leads us tommorow or the next days.Till the next time take care of your own head & heart & tune in next time!More info in some days!
The next head & heart matters was intended on sunday the 21st but as I currently have more time while preparing to travel back to gh I'll add an exstra addition on sunday the 14th.
It's just Monday the 8th 2015 shortly after the weekend of the 5th & 6th. But after a very odd conversation with my new love interest. where I kindly asked if he'd be interested to travel. He shortly after calling me back told me after not responding to that which I asked really , that he was going on vacation himself, and never cared to ask me, this is how ungentle-man-like man are these days we live in 2015 that's why I am better off not caring about any. I then decided to take a leave and travel to holland from where I'd intended to do the next piece on traveling & still eating healthy in the same week of his departure to see my family & move my fertility egg freezing appointment which would fall exactly in those days 12/13 for one week. As all these matters take a tole on my head and heart I just had the sudden urge that sitting in a fertility centre might not be where I want to be the next days.
So you see the next piece is called for naturally unforged nor forced naturally inspired by life! so I intended to visit my mom who I haven't seen since she visited me in Ghana and caused a mayhem as all mothers do. But after I booked my flight & called her she never picked the phone, despite that I have my keys, I still had the feeling that I don't have the interest to go any place where weird things occur currently.
But then this morning on the 9th of June as I called to cancel the flight, they told me that even if I cancel the flight I shall not receive any money back except some small taxes, So though I'm totally out of the groove & lost my spunk & inspiration to want to travel to the Netherlands & see my dog & some people, I left the option open, and should i make everything on time I shall simple proceed as planned & go to Rotterdam. After all I'm an adult now and can afford hotels, should it all be to stressful for me @my moms.
Though I heard nothing of them again I can't cancel the ticket, so allot of stress because my passport is still at the embassy and on such short notice the flight to holland I'll have to pick it up on the day I'm flying which is the day I was meant to pick up my visa anyhow.Though in light of these short chess moves I made in a day, all is clear It's a step I'll be taking to appease my ever older getting mother, after all parents don't live forever so even if I don't feel like seeing them @times it's all for the best and always important to try to have a good relationship
So I shall be adding additional pieces needed on Sunday & before if needed to keep the flow going!
& then again I also have allot to prepare before I go to Ghana anyhow which is already on the 25th.
Just me & dad!
First of this first piece is called from the road..cause some days we are just out of time. And even when we are out of time we gotta eat healthy specially if the intention is to eat healthy for a purpose as I am doing now the coming 60 to 90 days. So what exactly am I doing the next months why eating healthy matters, I'll go into that in a second, as I am also eating now as I write. So many ask themselves the question, when detoxing skating or whatever you wanna call it, They as is it aloud to eat outside??? many people when dieting stress themselves allot with these crazy diet food packages and things one can't enjoy so let me make very clear first and foremost. I'm not gonna lie and tell you oh go eat candy all day and drink coke and all will work out, cos that's a load of crap. What many don't know is that the body actually literally needs the wright vitamins and supplements in the body in order to not turn sugars and other things you eat into fat in your body. you gotta eat healthy. But who said that eating healthy can't be fun. Hallloooooo wake up, you live in 2015 everything can be fun it only depends on you and how you go about it! Meaning you can eat all this out and in.. cos it's not about who cooked it only it's more about what's in it. And as you see both these dinner have chillies in them I happen to love them but they are also good for burning fat over the time as we go more into all this I will specifically not down certain foods that literally burn fat in the body or reduce it's production chilies are one of them. Other healthy things on my menu here are white meets. like chicken.. the sushi up cause salmon is very healthy specially when eater how it's prepared like that . Give me a second to gather my thoughts and then I'll proceed bellow.
So directly bellow I'm showing you what not to do first. as you look in my fridge you see all my fav. things with which I have been collecting body fat by eating them the last weeks in just 4 weeks I've managed to gain like 3 kilos of body mass & fat exactly around the stomach area which obviously was not there in my bikini pictures wright before I left ghana just weeks before ! So you see how fast fat can attach itself to the body. look in my bad fridge habits well I'll take you thru the details of all bad foods and next time when I have cleaned all this out I'll show you my fridge again so you can see what not to do, and what to do!!! Cause ones the food is there if it's in your house your definitely gonna eat it. So the point is not to bring it in your house from the store to begin with. And only bring those foods you know won't harm you if you eat them well portioned! As you see my dinner portion for today is pretty huge. The reason why “?” well that’s how you gotta eat if you are eating correct & make sure you have only 3 supper a day or two. Breakfast lunch & dinner & after dinner which is a bit late now to have (but being that i sleep late it’s in the same relation” as if I woke early and will sleep early the point is the ours between your last supper and the time you sleep & then again the time you wake & all over again the next day. See normally If I don’t check my eating habit & Eat all those bad foods in the fridge. I make the mistake which in this case is intentional as I was resting & letting myself go a bit. But after each meal the body needs time to process so that which i do which is wrong, snacking all day instead of eating 3 steady good meals, that is one of the biggest cosses for fast fat gain. Cause when I do snack allot I don’t even eat much, & i usually have a hard time finishing my dinner which i don’t know. because I’m not snacking & instead of fat gaining foods my body gets time to process the correct vitamin rich foods I take in! More below and then I’ll go into some love matters shortly today as we have spoken so much of food already!
Great alternatives for juices one can purchase in stores, are also self made mixes of water honey & fruits & spices such as ginger or even chilies all spices one can use to make very interesting & healthy juices & tea's & it's very very important to drink lots of water anyhow like when you get hungry between meals drink instead of snacking it's filling and will prevent you from relapsing to bad snacks green tees are also fat burners so instead of coffee & stick to that!
So on what not to do we've been clear. And this might inspire you and instantly make ya wanna clean out your fridge, but relax cause stressing yourself alone is a fat creator. Mentally stressing yourself is the most unhealthy thing you can do to your body that's why i hate people who stress me so much! But why you shouldn't stress about food before you get to the healthy stuff is because that stress in itself is bad for you. You see though I knew clearly I was going to do this " payback back to six-pack & taking it all back" session i intentionally also didn't prepare my fridge to be perfect by the time I start to show you that even when you buy bad foods there is always something good in there u can use up before you go out and specifically shop for all this. cause the day you start can be very spontaneous we are after all inspired humans who do things based on inspiration then try to hold on to them thru discipline After those facts.
So apart from chockolate mouse & other things like sweets and Fanta, coke & sirups salami just allot of junk including these kind of juices from the normal supermarket where they show pics of fruits on them but when you read on the pack what’s actually in them it’s allot of undefined “e” ‘s meaning crap. Cause if it ain’t crap the pack just speciafies which fruit exstract and water and sugar the juice consist of! Not every juice that seems like it’s healthy is healthy, you gotta actually read on the pack something which I hate. but if you hate it to avoid to much reading and go to a bio shop! there most products are actually what the appear to be when looking on the pack! But don’t be fooled it’s not always the case!
So what was in my fridge that I could use on the spur of the moment as I started unprepared. Well there was white meet chicken in the fridge and frozen spinach there was some salads which I mixed with paprika. I fried the chicken cut in stripes with some chilli and ginger sauce and salt after i cut the chilies and put the chicken in it to soke a bit in its chilli water sauce mixed with salt. then I started to fry them poring the chicken in good olive oil. As it “the chicken” fried took them out of the pan and put the spinach in the pan which had the chicken residue & chilies in it I added onions to the greens and this meal went without rice or anything! you will notice after eating this you’ll be detoxing “ as in shitting pretty fast if not farthing”! Ok look below & lets not say that I’m fat yet, but if one can keep up that bad diet for a year yes one will be fat as a house after that.
So below you see pics of me from gh where I get allot of movement. regardless of the foods I eat or down't In Europe we have the sir of life where vesicle movement isn't always needed in our daily routine.But as you look from weeks ago to the last pics below the last 4 which are in berlin you notice the big difference after weeks of a bad diet even my skin in the face looks more or less radiant it's not only the sun although that matters allot. A bad diet can also make you skin look pail & uglier . We shall proceed with the love matter below after the pics of berlin. Anyhow its very easy to reverse the clock on own induced ageing thru bad foods by just simply returning to a good routine & diet. And with diet I don't mean hunger yourself. I mean eat well correct and timing. But we will go more into that in detail the next weeks as we role out these matter of the head & heart.
Wright now I’m enjoying my self made tea & was checking if the last ep’s of game of thrones were added as we await the finals today the 7th but let me tell you how the tea is made before we go into my loves-kapades which got me down this path of payback getting my six-pack back etc.
The tea for just one cup. you need three strawberries cut them in the cup then 2 or 3 slices of lemon & ginger cut in pieces incl honey. or good brown sugar. and that’s it this tea will heighten your vitamin levals causing your hungry moods to go down & is healthy.
Now the last matter after I put a cup of tea as I notice the huge dinner has already gone down & I'm sort of hungry again, but rather just in a snack mood cause I’m writing, writing or working behind the computer always gets me in a snacking mood. I think generally work that makes ya have to sit allot gets one to think of food more.
You know how when you have sex you wanna like flip and turn and all that, well not only that cos I’m mobile enough, but I’m the type of woman who gets off on my man getting off on me, that means if my man is literally getting orgasmic by just even starring at me cos he is struck by my hotness... then we don’t need to work hard to take it to some screaming "oh oh oh yes" levels. now if you ain’t 18 yet you didn’t see thy above wright?
Well I been having some sexy-pades the last month but honestly what I’m looking for is a man for life my mister wright my “we power couple” But it wasn’t working out like that so I said to myself fuck that I’m gonna focus on me and putting the hot in it like undeniable again. Not that i’m not hot already I mean I gets busy. But we ain’t talking about thy obvious the face etc etc. no I’m talking bout the abs the ass the everything that swings in thy air when love & lust are in thy air! “you feeling me” My health has always been important to me but my sex life is really important to me when I am having sex. and don’t worry I also sometimes do sex detox meaning no sex for months or years, but currently I am in a sexual place. Looking for a man that wants and can handle all of this and then some cause my personality ain’t a small one to handle. Anyhow lets stick on the facts of yesterday and today, reason why I ended up detoxing in the morning. was cause I was out & when I was, I met this guy with the hottest tattoos & he could really be it, though we both ain't n no hurry to be rushing "inlovidovy" emotions....despite sparks flying. cause we had a whole lot of other emotions. He had me going over and telling him to his face, to put down the phone and focus on me cause I was feeling that for real. After i was in the club a while and had some small flirts with taller baller guys who got to talking to me but to my taste seemed a bit distracted and other people who seemed really into me & doing all in their power to show that to me, but didn't have the total package to my liking like dat but .... then this felly suddenly showed up he wast in the club before cos I WOULD HAVE NOTEST then he cos my eye... standing there unaware of me undressing him down to just him with this sexy smile & the tattoos with my eyes. now I’m not gonna go into to many details on how we got down & dirty after the sparks flew ... after that first moment...but em all I can say is he can do me for a long time if he got it like that I’m in. & I don't mean a replica ppl so don't get any ideas now concerning stalking me with short guys & such. you can't exchange the chemistry I have with this person with anther....& In life it’s not always about differences sometimes it’s only about what ya got in common not what you ain’t got in common.. ( & with sometimes I mean as an exception this time ...no other time unless I specifically say so) I think we stand a chance cos when, what you got in common matters more " like in this case" your mutual focus gets push forward eventually being together call it love call it whatever its destiny when it just is now ain’t it! Anyhow this is to be continued cos for now we making moves to get closer but I can’t go into that now till we see how it all goes. & maybe next time i'd be able to share pics of him & me & our body contrasts hitting the light on one pic with all them tattoos.
Above a small sample of his body , & below the look of the night in question ... where the sparks flew!
And for today I'm out so until the next time head & heart matters 2 ... laters! Gotta go sleep tight!