SHE IS HERE & NOW I'M A MOTHER

Just like that I'm a mother & all what that means I'm yet to find out but what I do know already is a great joy ever since I gave birth to this beautiful healthy human being Called Afroditi Ilse-Louise Georgeous.

SUNDAY 16 AUGUST.

Have I eaten today? Not really some fruits yea...I got food on fire like I always have but nobappetite. I'm missing my boyfriend and honestly the last thing I feel like doing is blogging. It's light off .. bad wifi situation and I'm in kokrobite been working hard day in day out...have I been lazy just cos I'm not blogging no...The contrary! Been to busy working! 

WE DEY EAT MY SOUP OH!

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So first things. Yea I know today I'd actually should be writing on me script & me and not here head & heart but though I'd have to say I'd have watched enough movies while resting ocasionally last weeks. I simple don't have any referal love stories lined up. What I can say is that my long distance love has been more then supportive as the weeks have been trying romance has been flurishing making me look forward to see him after this work here is realised and I'm a step closer to realising my dreams here as well, But to some it up the relationship is in great shape with my boyfriend in hamburg joerg. If I had to vote on trust or on the vote of confidence in us and him having me out here alone ...hes been realky great about it...so I'd say a 10 put of 10 on healthy behaviour. And don't get a wrong idea there is a clear reason I've not worked on the race topic mentioned in script & .... I simply don't have the same energy in africa about writing africabout race matters let alone race matters & relationship matter in combination....such topics I save for when I'm in berlin im more inspires bout such topics there.

I been resting all day today and as I type im walking so I gotta watch my step. I'm walking my sister to the cab as she was resting with us and is going to site ten now to my dad's place...

I been resting all day today and as I type im walking so I gotta watch my step. I'm walking my sister to the cab as she was resting with us and is going to site ten now to my dad's place...

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Below a shot with landguard as we settled last matters on the plot. The days leading up to finishing up  In  order to get started finally were slow.But hell Yea it looks like the days of being able to say hey today we dey eat my soup oh, in my place of business have moved closer now, which us the reason for the title today,  ok sure today we actually did eat soup I cooked and fufu pounded by my sisters but that wasn't the actual reference here.

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The day we finalised and I was handed over the papers of the land.

The day we finalised and I was handed over the papers of the land.

Then today after two weeks of action and going thru the motions it's finally a day of resting fufu & soup and I'm using the time to work on the architectural layout for the entire space...

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front view to the sea....

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All left to say now is..saving up a bit then ready set "on my mark"  go!

All left to say now is..saving up a bit then ready set "on my mark"  go!

Just friends & workers my sister Mary & me below.

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We@work & more below!

HERE we had to take a food break...For a moment after starting work early that day.

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yea yea yea yea ..sure not to mention each day but yes been having my mint tea smoothies etc. etc. Almost each day to...

yea yea yea yea ..sure not to mention each day but yes been having my mint tea smoothies etc. etc. Almost each day to...

NOT EASY FINDING EU VEGGIES IN GH.

Not gonna write allot today.... but give u a recap last two weeks. I been doing my best to move each day that for sure...if not intentionally training, definately moving cos I had so much work to do...This week n the last has been trying...even lost my voice cos I was to tired...The land matters are going as they may .n I'm still in time I got the will and drive to see this thru the next year's till its done.  

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sure down the line when slso my boyfriend is free to come down with me, when I'm really ready to build the entire this will move faster. WITH THAT type of emotional support its always easy er in life to make thy almost inposable posable.

This morning.....I had long distance breakfast with my boo...n I must say even from afar we always to romantic things. It's really the most healthy relationship I been in sinse years. 

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The payment of the end entire n other stuff.

The payment of the end entire n other stuff.

bamboo transport from tema to kokrobite calling with my business partner after kalkulations I had to talk over some stuff.

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After Marian gel and I and thy other were done counting the 500 pieces of 4 meter 50 thick bamboos on the car.

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business dinner with Vegas n sk business pals n on location middle man.this day we were discussing measurements n kalkulating building costs n one took their child along who is very  fond of me like most children are I noticed. They are skilled in different crafts you will learn mire about later when tge building starts....diplomatic and my on location middle man I call them often almost each day to arrange stuff for me on location when I'm in tema or in eu. And the help out with kalkulations and support in all areas to keep lines open when dealing with others. im speak and tgey are resoevtfull enough to listen but akso have and contribute ideas and thoughs on all matters.  

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Another day another bike ride of the many rides.

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buying the amboo .

The sales man of the bamboo and wood..They made a very hood selection for me based on my wishes. I'd buy from them again...if only transport costs to kokrobite from tema goes down...

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After kalkulating how much bamboo I need my head was spinning...left was to select n stay for the selection ... then next day order a car put them on it and go...my cousin half cash helped with that...though it could have been and better family or ice ;-( ....It think....hihihi ;-) all good .

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I mostly kept my healthy shakes in my bag. Grandad got ill even during this time so that added to the stress naturally and I really had to keep my vitamins up.

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This land was just to small and close to the water ...literally the sea rises to the gates in the front . My business partner was like no I don't want you to die there from a big wave. so that was a no no.

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The day we went to buy the stones. At the stone Quarry. The yellow truck was ordered n payed for by me n volleyed the stones that day sk drove with the truck to give them directions and Vegas drove my car I was really tired.

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IN A NUTSHELL!

" IN A NUTSHELL " Is the piece I intend to write today but as we are dealing with a bit of a slow wifi currently which like takes a half our to upload images I normally upload in minutes in Europe, let me see how things are moving as this slow net connection just started now @ this our we might have to move this live session to the morning before I go get my fit on tomorrow. Allot is going on but in a nutshell I have been managing the most things that need to be done concerning my six back back program, so far I feel good sticking with my fruit shakes gives me allot of energy each day. So I've been on them and on a pretty tight training schedule, not to much nor to stressful but enough to lose all the exstra.

By the way these nuts are pretty healthy for us oddly enough also fat burning and the natural oils it contains is good.  This piece i'm intending to write is called in a nutshell cause I actually wanted to talk about all the things that are good for us, in this case as in me and things that are not. Sometimes I wish in life that it was so easy to say in a nutshell what is good for us or not as is to be said about these peanuts. 

It's pretty easy to say these are good for you, but take training or foods or even relationships . Yeah at some point in life we get so tolerant to many and so intolerant to other stuff and have a list of things we want need etc etc. But sometimes we only get to a part of that. That's why priorities gotta be made. To me currently my main priority is personal happiness, so despite my training and land matters and million other things going o in my life  I naturally do not put my relationship after all those things but in front or on the same leven but never after. In life not balancing your stage of life based on where you are at in your life makes you loose balance and then it becomes harder to even know in a nutshell what is or isn't good for you. Well luckily I feel physically mentally and spiritually great cause in all aspects I know exactly what is good for me. And I'd be lying if I said the contribution of happiness my boyfriends presents in my life brings isn't one of em I'm all about what's good for me @ this point in my life & have no understanding nor to much time for most who don't get that. I've had weird comments like how do you know this or that is good for you. Well privately it's an individual matter, But on the training even my condition going in a great direction is uplifting. Also I fit nicely in my fav. looks and I'll go a little bit more into that and not weighing yourself to much on the next flow on this peace tomorrow. I already said it before trying to get fit from a negative pace is really hard to maintain so again. Don't give up on life in order to physically get fit. embrace it. Thats what integrating your fitness in your life is. Don't make only your fines a priority when everything else is falling apart in your life, cause in that case the training is more like crutches not like a foundation to an all-round happy feeling that one needs to lose weight without mojo effect! 

By the way I ate a bunch of them I got on the road yesterday as I was preparing to start writing today. Don't forget head & heart is every 2 weeks and that the two weeks in a row was only a one time thing when I was in the Netherlands. It's a make up free sunday and I have taken in enough rest today. enjoyed myself with stuff I want to eat that aren't only out of my workout box of foods. Sometimes it's good to take a day off to throw of the body from a new routine it's getting use to if you keep it up each day. That routine should be shaken up from time to time. Hey I'll be leaving ya'll now. I'll see what images load faster tommorow. and add some more. This is me now on Head & heart matters. 

"SINGLESEXYPOWERHOUSE"DO REAL GOOD MAN STILL EXIST?

THIS MORNING Well this morning I got up after a long good rest still feeling attacked from the allergies. But I managed best I could and did a 20 minute work out for the abs, after that I took my shower I had eaten prior. So I then only needed to get dressed and leave the house. with the dog which I walked for some time & then after that I got in and looked for what we eat, then I Prepared fro head & heart all the pictures and stuff and then I  HAD A REALLY GOOD REST AND HERE WE ARE. Before you read this piece and make any illusions that I must still be into you and this goes for anybody I ever dated or tried dating in the past. For me the spark between two people is just that "between two people" I don't do one sided love therefor loos any interest the second I see it's not returned or I'm not treated wright romantically by a person. That can also be the cause why people who mess up in the beginning always run after the facts trying to get my attention. But personally I believe people with the tendency to be successful know what they want also privately in their life and don't need to mess that up before they get it. For that reason and many more I'm not a real believes of love @ 3rd sight. If you really like me its something that is constant and continues from the memento our eyes meet. And if you don't know hat you want in life you need to long to realise that in that case your more like a woman and more like a libra the I am and I'm not interested later. And note don't ask why am I telling the story then "question" how the fuck do you want me to tell the story without actually telling the story??? Exsactly doesn't mean i'm still into some past waste of time!!!

So to start of my piece I want ya'll to realise though I'm a bit on the early side today as we are first to start at nine or around. But I want ya'll to know concerning live blogging as it is live which means in real life things can always happen which delay a process, you know which is normal..like example how as you can see below sometimes I'm still moving images from one phone to the other or to the computer and stuff or taking pics etc etc. you know the technical aspect of all this & also today I'm starting with these 3 sower pickles which I have to eat just now cause I was suffering from a swollen under tongue which is caused by an allergic reaction I had on the way to my aunties place to days ago, cause there were so many trees and stuff there. Well the next day I was flat and it wasn't rather cause of the bike ride but mores cause my body was having a hard time processing all that including the allergy. Anyhow so they say this sower pickle is meant to help the swelling go down and the tongeu which has been since that day to go down, as I also instantly feel a relieve. At first I just felt the pain there in that place but it is only today I noticed that actually swelling as I kept wondering why the pain was still there though I viscidly feel better already since I took a rest. Well so I went and take a look and checked what natural remedy could make this go away and so they say sower pickle. Anyhow to open the topic today I don't just want to talk about food and the diet but also about spiritual attitude one should develop to be able to make it true a process of dieting or eating well better yet, and moving correctly to loose pounds and build muscle if that's what one desires. But in mentioning 3 sower pickles it's save to say now or days it's like many man out there in what ever is left of our dating pool in 2015 are just like these sower picked "sower" !

And so we come to my mental state and how Id have to work overtime to make sure such people with no good intentions didn't manage to brake my spirit down and cause me to fold on this initiative I have take for the next weeks to come.

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I'm not having a perfect sitting position as I get ready to write, but ok this isn't my own apartment in berlin or gh Where my writing desk and everything is prepared for me so we take it as it is how ever uncomfortable my mind is on point and my hands are still willing so lets go into what's been up, mental state etc etc. So those who religiously follow my Instagram etc already know the deal, concerning that I was innitially chatting on what's up with an old acquaintance. And the deal was kind of he asked me out on a drink around november december where I was still in ghana and @ that point I just sort of stopped unofficially dating some1 who just wasn't getting serious so do to that I just cut that all together and we became just friends. Well long story short as this guy lets call him matt to keep all things clear, as this guy then asked me out from Berlin I said oh I'm in ghana so maybe rain check, then he said oh why not just get to know each other better kind of, and so I suggested for us to have our first date on Skype, he got a drink and i got a drink we skyped talked and that was the first official date. So after that we stayed in touch, but then what was meant to be a short time before I returned and we could go on a real date turned out to become longer as I had to extend the trip some weeks to take care of some final things which initially even helped me to get this land that I am now proceeding to purchase. So it was very needed this extention at that time.  

 

EXTENDED & RESULTS  LAND MATTERS BELOW 

just now I have to eat a bite so I'll be gone for  a half our and be back, after eating,  the day started a bit late so all is a bit delayed, and as you wonder well what do my thoughts and food and all that have to do with my head n heart, well we are what we eat do see & feel so I guess to know what is in my head and heart we gotta go into some general details sure we can't cover all on one sunday evening but we can tell it like it is for the time being, wright now I'm eating this below. 

Delicious Quinoa /                                                              Mom & me

 

But before I leave what i'm eating, my mom cooked Quinoa  veggies added advocate chicken stew  & two bananas or plantain better yet. 

Quinoa is a good gluten-free source of protein, iron, and fiber, quinoa is a quick and flavorful way to get in a serving of whole grains. About the size of pellets of couscous, quinoa cooks in about 20 minutes. The only special handling required with quinoa is to give it a good rinse before cooking; otherwise, the grains can be bitter.

THE LONG DISTANCES IN ROTTERDAM NETHERLANDS WITHOUT THE DETAIL

So I know your now all into the juicy detail of this dating story and stuff and ya wanna know how that al proceeds, but I promised so much and also to go into the distances I traveled with the bike and walking so first things first and now your into the intro of this story, we gonna take it from the top what we did today and how backwards all the way back to the day I left berlin which went a bit like this listen so First day .. The day I barely slept when I got to holland, after cleaning and packing in berlin ... Then drove with my bike from ziegelstrasse to Stavanger straße in Berlin Ghana embassy to pick my pass & visa  &  back... I was a bit in a hurry so on the way there I parochially took a cab and put my city cruiser in it. 

 

But Before I drove to the doctors office in Mitte n had to make a million calls and write mails all under pressure and stress, that I still had to catch a plane... That day I made it all and got on time to check my bags in the stress of flying and all that which comes before. Then I reached my Aunti and Anna and my other niece picked me up from the airport. I got to my moms we all sat drank talked. Then my Aunti dropped us off around kruiskade cause I had to get something there from the shop. From there I walked back which is the distance on this image  "up left " To my moms in kralingen. The next morning I walked back there to & from kruiskade  a total 6 km and it doesn't stop there these are the other distances, but even the day I went to maatenessedijk to sleep at my nieces house the day we went out together, That day I kind of had to walk allot of the entire distance of 5.5 km cause my dog dad del got tired really fast and as he did I had to sort of walk pull him & the bike and the heavy stuff I had with me that day no picnic but all in the name of fit why not. It turned out to be a fun evening despite that work but the next day I biked back the same distance. Then that same evening I drove with my niece on the bike to Barendrecht to visit my uncle and aunt her parents. And I already mentioned before try to make sure you do your movement in coordination of things you have to do anyway or fun but don't only do it as a by force exercise only that can cause your motivation to drop a little bit faster then is needed to keep this up.

I'll go into why brown bread & grains aren't as good as some think it is for fat burning purposes next time help me remember. But generally it isn't a crime to eat foods that are processed a little just avoid eating it allot. Point is whole grains in bread like that are processed to keep that long meaning chemical despite how it's hyped as healthy your body has a hard time processing that into anything else except storing it as fat. More about that next time for today I don't want to go into food to much. I gave one good tip on the food I ate today & it be a bit much to count back on every little thing I ate the last week prior but you can get an image and see there is mostly no bread. Or very less. 

As far as the love story goes two horror stories followed after that 5 month chatting for sort of nothing but the detail of that is, this guy also became a "just friend" cause the thing never climaxed from friendship into a sexual romance witch any sexually active adult will tell you isn't the end goal of a love relationship. Then after I was dating or basically crushing into two other people I met we did climax but the one was burned in the past and doesn't know nor want to commit again, so he said and thy other has children and behaved asif the children were more of a priority then me since the first day & then acted that out by ignoring me period which also isn't what I am looking for in a loving and caring many who always puts me first! So there it is emotionally I did manage all that really well and didn't have any tendency to get to sad despite that one could really conclude that if this is all that is out there for us single ladies then the world is at a very sad state currently. So I didn't want to come here and give ya'll a sobstory & claim I tried everything but so and so. So to add a little spice to this flavour I though I'd add the one element where I can say I tried everything in thy end & at the same time I could kill 2 bees with one stone. What am I talking about well " dating sites" because now or days some guys don't here no, and even if you tell them no your not my type or at this point in life ai'm not dating so or so, or I exspress clearly what type of guy I do wanna date rather then so and so but then in the end only the criterea we ain't into gets on our nerves so it's as good as zero or nothing. Anyhow what I want to do is I personally want to test and see if dating sites really work & two I actually at first only wanted to take the questions one has to answer to state a post about the specifics that certain people look for in a loves cancelling others out meaning if you don't fall in that category for me we don't need to go into why I'm not more hot about you then about some1 who is cause that is what criteria is about and though people and real men don't seem that get that now a days in real life I wonder if it is the same online dating sites & I don't really mean Facebook I mean actual sites. The thing is if I state in a dating site age from 28/45 and some1 writes me who is 58 then I think wtf same as in real life wright. Only in real life it's a little bit more annoying cause such a person can't be deleted by a simple delete button in an email if the interest isn't really thee in real life as a kind person i mostly do my best to be nice about it and let them down easy unless if they become stalkers then there is no other way but to be honest about it! 

I TOTALLY AGRY WITH THY ABOVE

but one can only be monogemous ones two have actually really established and verbally agreed to actually really have a love relationship that from that point on is seen as such monogamous one and sadly with the nonsense I been dealing with the last weeks that level was never reached and in other cases not even slightly close gone in that direction to see it ever going there.

I can't get into how specific dating sites are on everything concerning who you are and who you want to be with eventually without filling to much space here but ya'll get the point and everybody who has  ever been on a site like that even as a joke knows how detailed it is personally I would appreciate people in real life to also not waste my time. Like if I state im looking for a serious relationship don't waste my time if your just looking for a one night stand or simply for nothing, At the end of the day that's just like dealing with deff people who only hear what they want to hear. And I'm not into that. I like people who know what they want as I do and try mostly to stay on that course. And so it is that on a dating sight I specify the guys hight gotta be at least starting 188 not to short taller guys aloud and I state they have to be very very cute and attractive by anybodies standards, so if you know you ain't you don't need to bother. I think dating sites give a good example of what people don't understand in real life anymore about a persons preferences or not. As so it is that I indicate what I want and they to show me interest if they are into it. At least so it seems that is clear enough. In real life people often act assif they forgot you stated your only into serious relationships after or while they waste your time wanting something else themselves or having personal emotional issues cause of  some ex assif I am your ex wtf. Anyhow long story short

that's why I call the bust of past weeks no serious but emotionally unavailable guys sower picles they all sower about something but don't even realise it can't be about me cause they have never dated me before so I'd suggest ya'll go put your frustrations on your exes and not on me & let me move on i'm not into sower blaming me for shit of their past I ain't done! So you see despite all this where did I still get the energy from to travel and simply keep going simple, I take life by the day as it comes and I try keeping my spirits up by never blaming myself for other peoples flaws. Anyhow when I get of track then not to much, like for instance one of the people that actually look ok to my standarts on the site lives in Hamburg, well Hamburg is not that far from berlin so that's not a drama point is I'm not interested in starting any unrealistic relationship at this point in my life and any man who is serious about having a serious relationship gets that and feels the same without that I have to explain as much as I had to, to some in Africa, If financially at my age something is to draining one has to consider that very seriously cause fact is life goes faster then we know & is short! And on this note "4 ours live blogging" we are done! So Now I can take the time to add the number of my online date & see where the chatting leads us tommorow or the next days.Till the next time take care of your own head & heart & tune in next time!More info in some days!

 

INFO

The next head & heart matters was intended on sunday the 21st but as I currently have more time while preparing to travel back to gh I'll add an exstra addition on sunday the 14th. 

It's just Monday the 8th 2015 shortly after the weekend of the 5th & 6th. But after a very odd conversation with my new love interest. where I kindly asked if he'd be interested to travel. He shortly  after calling me back told me after not responding to that which I asked really , that he was going on vacation himself, and never cared to ask me, this is how ungentle-man-like man are these days we live in 2015 that's why I am better off not caring about any. I then decided to take a leave and travel to holland from where I'd intended to do the next piece on traveling & still eating healthy in the same week of his departure to see my family & move my fertility egg freezing appointment which would fall exactly in those days 12/13 for one week. As all these matters take a tole on my head and heart I just had the sudden urge that sitting in a fertility centre might not be where I want to be the next days.

So you see the next piece is called for naturally unforged nor forced naturally inspired by life! so I intended to visit my mom who I haven't seen since she visited me in Ghana and caused a mayhem as all mothers do. But after I booked my flight & called her she never picked the phone, despite that  I have my keys, I still had the feeling that I don't have the interest to go any place where weird things occur currently.

But then this morning on the 9th of June as I called to cancel the flight, they told me that even if I cancel the flight I shall not receive any money back except some small taxes, So though I'm totally out of the groove & lost my spunk & inspiration to want to travel to the Netherlands & see my dog & some people, I left the option open, and should i make everything on time I shall simple proceed as planned & go to Rotterdam. After all I'm an adult now and can afford hotels, should it all be to stressful for me @my moms. 

Though I heard nothing of them again I can't cancel the ticket, so allot of stress because my passport is still at the embassy and on such short notice the flight to holland I'll have to pick it up on the day I'm flying which is the day I was meant to pick up my visa anyhow.Though in light of these short chess moves I made in a day, all is clear It's a step I'll be taking to appease my ever older getting mother, after all parents don't live forever so even if I don't feel like seeing them @times it's all for the best and always important to try to have a good relationship

So I shall be adding additional pieces needed on Sunday & before if needed to keep the flow going!

& then again I also have allot to prepare before I go to Ghana anyhow which is already on the 25th.

Just me & dad!

HEAD&HEART MATTERS 1 "FROM THE ROAD"!

First of this first piece is called from the road..cause some days we are just out of time. And even when we are out of time we gotta eat healthy specially if the intention is to eat healthy for a purpose as I am doing now the coming 60 to 90 days. So what exactly am I doing the next months why eating healthy matters, I'll go into that in a second, as I am also eating now as I write. So many ask themselves the question, when detoxing skating or whatever you wanna call it, They as is it aloud to eat outside??? many people when dieting stress themselves allot with these crazy diet food packages and things one can't enjoy so let me make very clear first and foremost. I'm not gonna lie and tell you oh go eat candy all day and drink coke and all will work out, cos that's a load of crap. What many don't know is that the body actually literally needs the wright vitamins and supplements in the body in order to not turn sugars and other things you eat into fat in your body. you gotta eat healthy. But who said that eating healthy can't be fun. Hallloooooo wake up, you live in 2015 everything can be fun it only depends on you and how you go about it! Meaning you can eat all this out and in.. cos it's not about who cooked it only it's more about what's in it. And as you see both these dinner have chillies in them I happen to love them but they are also good for burning fat over the time as we go more into all this I will specifically not down certain foods that literally burn fat in the body or reduce it's production chilies are one of them. Other healthy things on my menu here are white meets. like chicken.. the sushi up cause salmon is very healthy specially when eater how it's prepared like that . Give me a second to gather my thoughts and then I'll proceed bellow.

 

So directly bellow I'm showing you what not to do first. as you look in my fridge you see all my fav. things with which I have been collecting body fat by eating them the last weeks in just 4 weeks I've managed to gain like 3 kilos of body mass & fat exactly around the stomach area which obviously was not there in my bikini pictures wright before I left ghana just weeks before ! So you see how fast fat can attach itself to the body. look in my bad fridge habits well I'll take you thru the details of all bad foods and next time when I have cleaned all this out I'll show you my fridge again so you can see what not to do, and what to do!!! Cause ones the food is there if it's in your house your definitely gonna eat it. So the point is not to bring it in your house from the store to begin with. And only bring those foods you know won't harm you if you eat them well portioned! As you see my dinner portion for today is pretty huge. The reason why “?” well that’s how you gotta eat if you are eating correct & make sure you have only 3 supper a day or two. Breakfast lunch & dinner & after dinner which is a bit late now to have (but being that i sleep late it’s in the same relation” as if I woke early and will sleep early the point is the ours between your last supper and the time you sleep & then again the time you wake & all over again the next day. See normally If I don’t check my eating habit & Eat all those bad foods in the fridge. I make the mistake which in this case is intentional as I was resting & letting myself go a bit. But after each meal the body needs time to process so that which i do which is wrong, snacking all day instead of eating 3 steady good meals, that is one of the biggest cosses for fast fat gain. Cause when I do snack allot I don’t even eat much, & i usually have a hard time finishing my dinner which i don’t know. because I’m not snacking & instead of fat gaining foods my body gets time to process the correct vitamin rich foods I take in! More below and then I’ll go into some love matters shortly today as we have spoken so much of food already! 

Great alternatives for juices one can purchase in stores, are also self made mixes of water honey & fruits & spices such as ginger or even chilies all spices one can use to make very interesting & healthy juices & tea's & it's very very important to drink lots of water anyhow like when you get hungry between meals drink instead of snacking it's filling and will prevent you from relapsing to bad snacks green tees are also fat burners so instead of coffee & stick to that!

So on what not to do we've been clear. And this might inspire you and instantly make ya wanna clean out your fridge, but relax cause stressing yourself alone is a fat creator. Mentally stressing yourself is the most unhealthy thing you can do to your body that's why i hate people who stress me so much! But why you shouldn't stress about food before you get to the healthy stuff is because that stress in itself is bad for you. You see though I knew clearly I was going to do this " payback back to six-pack & taking it all back" session i intentionally also didn't prepare my fridge to be perfect by the time I start to show you that even when you buy bad foods there is always something good in there u can use up before you go out and specifically shop for all this. cause the day you start can be very spontaneous we are after all inspired humans who do things based on inspiration then try to hold on to them thru discipline After those facts. 

So apart from chockolate mouse & other things like  sweets and Fanta, coke & sirups salami just allot of junk including these kind of juices from the normal supermarket where they show pics of fruits on them but when you read on the pack what’s actually in them it’s allot of undefined “e” ‘s meaning crap. Cause if it ain’t crap the pack just speciafies which fruit exstract and water and sugar the juice consist of! Not every juice that seems like it’s healthy is healthy, you gotta actually read on the pack something which I hate. but if you hate it to avoid to much reading and go to a bio shop! there most products are actually what the appear to be when looking on the pack! But don’t be fooled it’s not always the case! 

So what was in my fridge that I could use on the spur of the moment as I started unprepared. Well there was white meet chicken in the fridge and frozen spinach there was some salads which I mixed with paprika. I fried the chicken cut in stripes with some chilli and ginger sauce and salt after i cut the chilies and put the chicken in it to soke a bit in its chilli water sauce mixed with salt. then I started to fry them poring the chicken in good olive oil. As it “the chicken” fried took them out of the pan and put the spinach in the pan which had the chicken residue & chilies in it I added onions to the greens and this meal went without rice or anything! you will notice after eating this you’ll be detoxing “ as in shitting pretty fast if not farthing”! Ok look below  & lets not say that I’m fat yet, but if one can keep up that bad diet for a year yes one will be fat as a house after that.

So below you see pics of me from gh where I get allot of movement. regardless of the foods I eat or down't In Europe we have the sir of life where vesicle movement isn't always needed in our daily routine.But as you look from weeks ago to the last pics below the last 4 which are in berlin you notice the big difference after weeks of a bad diet even my skin in the face looks more or less radiant it's not only the sun although that matters allot. A bad diet can also make you skin look pail & uglier . We shall proceed with the love matter below after the pics of berlin. Anyhow its very easy to reverse the clock on own induced ageing thru bad foods by just simply returning to a good routine & diet. And with diet I don't mean hunger yourself. I mean eat well correct and timing. But we will go more into that in detail the next weeks as we role out these matter of the head & heart. 

Wright now I’m enjoying my self made tea & was checking if the last ep’s of game of thrones were added as we await the finals today the 7th but let me tell you how the tea is made before we go into my loves-kapades which got me down this path of payback getting my six-pack back etc. 

The tea for just one cup. you need three strawberries cut them in the cup  then 2 or 3 slices of lemon & ginger cut in pieces incl honey. or good brown sugar. and that’s it this tea will heighten your vitamin levals causing your hungry moods to go down & is healthy. 

Now the last matter after I put a cup of tea as I notice the huge dinner has already gone down & I'm sort of hungry again,  but rather just in a snack mood cause I’m writing, writing or working behind the computer always gets me in a snacking mood. I think generally work that makes ya have to sit allot gets one to think of food more. 

You know how when you have sex you wanna like flip  and turn and all that, well not only that cos I’m mobile enough, but I’m the type of woman who gets off on my man getting off  on me, that means if my man is literally getting orgasmic by just even starring at me cos he is struck by my hotness... then we don’t need to work hard to take it to some screaming "oh oh oh yes"  levels. now if you ain’t 18 yet you didn’t see thy above wright? 

Well I been having some sexy-pades the last month but honestly what I’m looking for is a man for life my mister wright my “we power couple” But it wasn’t working out like that so I said to myself fuck that I’m gonna focus on me and putting the hot in it like undeniable again. Not that i’m not hot already I mean I gets busy. But we ain’t talking about thy obvious the face etc etc. no I’m talking bout the abs the ass the everything that swings in thy air when love & lust are in thy air! “you feeling me” My health has always been important to me but my sex life is really important to me when I am having sex. and don’t worry I also sometimes do sex detox meaning no sex for months or years, but currently I am in a sexual place. Looking for a man that wants and can handle all of this and then some cause my personality ain’t a small one to handle. Anyhow lets stick on the facts of yesterday and today, reason why I ended up detoxing in the morning. was cause I was out  & when  I was,  I met this guy with the hottest tattoos & he could really be it, though we both ain't n no hurry to be rushing "inlovidovy" emotions....despite sparks flying. cause we had a whole lot of other emotions. He had me going over and telling him to his face, to put down the phone and focus on me cause I was feeling that  for real.  After i was in the club a while and had some small flirts with taller baller guys who got to talking to me but to my taste seemed a bit distracted  and other people who seemed really into me & doing all in their power to show that to me, but didn't have the total package to my liking like dat but .... then   this felly suddenly showed up he wast in the club before cos I WOULD HAVE NOTEST then he cos my eye... standing there unaware of me undressing him down to just him with this sexy smile & the tattoos with my eyes. now I’m not gonna go into to many details on how we got down & dirty after the sparks flew ... after that first moment...but em all I can say is he can do me for a long time if he got it like that I’m in. & I don't mean a replica ppl  so don't get any ideas now concerning stalking me with short guys & such. you can't exchange the chemistry I have with this person with anther....& In life it’s not always about differences sometimes it’s only about what ya got in common not what you ain’t got in common.. ( & with sometimes I mean as an exception this time ...no other time unless I specifically say so) I think we stand a chance cos when, what you got in common matters more " like in this case"  your mutual focus gets push forward eventually being together call it love call it whatever its destiny when it just is now ain’t it! Anyhow this is to be continued cos for now we making moves to get closer but I can’t go into that now till we see how it all goes. & maybe next time i'd be able to share pics of him & me & our body contrasts hitting the light on one pic with all them tattoos.

Above a small sample of his body , & below the look of the night in question ... where the sparks flew!

And for today I'm out so until the next time head & heart matters  2 ... laters! Gotta go sleep tight!